I just want to be empty again

I binged. Alot. I'm so full D:  I wish I could purge :\  Nothing ever comes up though :\

I've decided I'm going to water fast tomorrow, as planned, and then liquid fast or continue water fasting until I'm back at my LW.

I'm such a failure :\

But that's the last of this binging nonsense for August.

I just really want to be able to eat like a normal person :\ Tonight, at work, there were so many skinny pretty girls eating whatever they wanted. Ughh.
I keep telling myself that I'll be able to do that when I'm at my GW. But I know I won't be able to. I'm in too deep now.

I feel like I need a hug.

Keep me strong..
-Kayla <3