My quick updates always turn into super long posts

You can always tell when I'm not doing well. I don't post as much.

I was going to start the ABC again yesterday, but I didn't because I went out with a friend to buy an outfit for a concert on Wednesday, and we got lunch. So I ate whatever I wanted the rest of the day pretty much.. I didn't eat before that though..

But then after that I was like, oh, I can't start it yet anyway, because it is my brothers and sister birthday next week, Monday and Wednesday, so there will be cake and take away for dinner ect.
So I am going to start the ABC diet on the 16th of March. I think I've said that in a different post. But oh well :)
Anyone want to join me? :D

I told my friend that I was still a vegetarian. She said "my mission for today is to make you eat meat!"
My response: "..no.. I don't want to eat meat.."
Her: "You're going to eat meat."
Me: "No I'm not."
Her: "Yes you arrrreee! Why not?"
Me: "I just don't want to. You can't force me. I just don't want to eat it."
Her: "Well, McDonald's doesn't even have real meat in it anyway, so you are going to eat a cheeseburger WITH the meat"
Me: "actually, McDonald's is 100% Beef and chicken"
Her: "yeah. Suuuureee it is."
Me: "It is. I'll seriously print out all of the proof and everything for you. I will go out of my way just to prove to you that it is"
Her: "Sure sure. You're going to eat it anyway"
Me: No I'm not. I'm going to go for at least a year. I'm not eating meat. I feel cleaner. I'll eat lunch with you. Just not the meat."
Her: "A YEAR!? Ha, no. You're definitely eating meat today!"
Me: "no thanks."

She wasn't saying it in a mean way. But it did feel like pressure. I wasn't going to give in of course. I don't have a weakness towards meat anymore.
Gosh, image her if I said I wasn't eating lunch at all. She always tries and pressures me into eating junk food when I am on a specific diet.
She's my longest and only friend. There isn't any hate towards her, she just has different ways of thinking about food is all.

I took my measurement yesterday, when I woke up.

Prepare for a shock.

All of my measurements were down, since the end of ABC. Except my weight and my waist.

My waist was a cm or two up, I think that is because my belly still had food in it. And my weight is up, well, because of this horrible food rampage I am on.

I won't post the actual numbers now, I'll retake them and post them when I start the ABC diet.


I put on the outfit I got for the concert I am going to on Wednesday, to show my mum and dad, today. I like it. They like it. Yay. But I asked if it made me look a little big, because it's a puffy kind of top. My dad literally laughed and said no. Like full on cracked up. He probably thinks I'm crazy.

My dad openly says that I starve myself.
My sister was somewhat teasing me about how much I have been eating lately. It is waaay more than the average person. It is at the point that it is on the higher range of the binge scale. Everyday. I asked her how does she know this (she lives with her fiance). She said mum and dad were talking about it.
I confronted both of them. Separately. Mum tried to deny it as usual. Just got cranky and yelled "Fine! I won't f*cking talk to anyone about anything from now on!"
This is one of her frequently used phrases. Seriously, sometimes I think that she still has a teenage mind set and attitude.
My dad tried to deny it too. He acted like he didn't know what I was talking about. Then he just simply said "I just think it's a bit weird and random that you suddenly went from starving yourself, to wanting all of this food"


Also, my mum, sister, nanny and I were chatting, I think it was about weight or something, they're all obese, and my nanny was like, "gosh, you're not fat Kayla, I wish I was as skinny as you. You'll have to tell me your diet" Mum: Laughs. "No you don't." She then thinks how to word it without making me upset, or something like that. "She counts like, every last calories. It's alot of calorie counting.. and.. just. No you don't want her diet."
Me: "Whaaatt, it's not that bad!" Laughs.



I also took progress pictures yesterday. There isn't too much of a change. Just my tummy is more firm, as in sticking out firm, now, because of all of the food. It makes it look different.

Sunday, the day I went shopping with my friend, was the first time I have comfortably gone clothes shopping with someone that isn't either my mum or my sister. I wasn't ashamed of my size. She was even quite helpful. AND she even called me skinny. Me. The fat friend our entire lives. Skinny. Ha, boy did that make me feel good.
We both were criticizing our own bodies though, she was complaining about her busty chest (but she has a small frame. It is kind of disproportioned, but it's just her genetics) and I was complaining about my belly. And legs.
I definitely need to work on them.


I am pretty much going to eat whatever for the next week and a half. I am going to be so fat when I start he ABC diet.

At least I'll lose it though.

I am aiming to be at 50kg by the end of it. 55kg if my weight is super high by the time I start it.

I'm going to exercise while I am on it too, this time.

I am going to go hard out. I am super determined. My stomach is so fat right now. Ugh. More than usual.


I weighed in at 64.4kg this morning. Well, yesterday morning now. It's nearly 2:30am.

Weighing in now. I am over 66kg. It always goes down by the time I weigh in though. But still. I can't believe I've let myself go this much. But I just can't get in the right mind set. I don't know what it is. Ugh.
I am without a doubt going to be in the right mind set by the time I start the ABC diet again.
Once I get the ball rolling with ABC, I'll be fine.

Also, you know how I barely "went to the toilet" when I was on the ABC diet. Well, now a days, I am going like every day. If not more. It's fricken weird. It's not like I've been eating the most nutritious foods. At all.

I'll update again in a few days, I'll hopefully post some pictures of my from before the concert, in my outfit and what not :)


Don't give up on yourself.
-Kayla <3