Wtf is wrong with me?!

I made it through day one of my water fast. And half of day 2. Then I was like f*ck it. I'm eating. I don't know why. I really don't.
My weight is becoming an issue. I've gained so much. I can't believe I got up to 64kg again. Although I did weigh in at 62.1kg this morning. But that is still way too much.

I need to get out of this binge fast cycle.

Going to try just restricting for a few days. I'm only allowing 350 cals tomorrow. But my absolute maximum is 800. Plus I'm working for 7 hours and I plan to work out after work.

I've decided that I'm starting the ABC diet on the 1st of April. I would start it tomorrow, the 1st of March; but March is just a super busy month. I have a concert in a week, then my brothers and sisters birthday in the middle of March.
I just have to be strong through Easter. On the 8th of April. I will though.

I want to be at my UGW by my birthday. Which is a few days after I will finish the ABC diet :)

I plan on water fasting with a few days of liquid fasting if I need them for like 16 days. Between the 16th and the 31st of March. If I can.. Maybe a few food days in there? I'm not entirely sure yet.

In the meantime, I'm just going to try and be as non-bingey as I can. Exercise everyday, even if it is just a little. At least it will be something. And to be more social! :) I have to step out of my comfort zone sooner or later. Or I'll never be able to live my life.

I didn't exercise today. I was beyond tired. Excuses excuses.

I am going to be so tired in the morning, I have to get up at 5am for work and it's past 12:30am already. Yay -.-


So, I better try and sleep.


Don't give up trying.
-Kayla <3