My New Plan

I'm not at a new LW. I actually went up 0.2kg on the last day of my liquid fast. Yeah, idk. 

But I'm on school holidays at the moment, and I have a new plan/goals. It goes as followed;

• Don't eat over 800 calories (WAAAYY higher than I usually eat, but I guess it'll give me room without feeling guilty)
• Burn AT LEAST 100 calories a day.
• Do ALL of my toning exercises every day.
• Do DOUBLE if I miss a day.
• Be UNDER 70kg by the 18th of July (when I go back to school)

Being under 70kg doesn't sound that hard, considering the weight I am at. But I just can't seem to get under it. I've been stuck between 70kg and 75kg for over a month now. It's so frustrating. :@

I'll update next Monday about how I am going, if I don't have anything to update in the meantime. 

Take care and stay strong.

-Kayla <3

It's been a while..

FINALLLYYYYYYYYY

It's been nearly a month! D:

BUT! I've finally reached a new low weight! As of this morning I'm at 70.4kg (155.20 lb) and hopefully I'll be at a lower weight by tomorrow :)

It's taking me so long because I went through two binge cycles since my last post. And that made me gain weight, then I lost it, and then I gained it again. Now I've finally lost it again and hopefully I don't gain again!
When I gained all the weight, I didn't get as high as I usually do, which is good. :)

At the moment, I'm on the 2nd day of a liquid fast. The first day I didn't eat anything, so I'm counting that as a water fast day. But it's still under the liquid fast on the 'My Diets, Past and Present' page.

Oh! Yesterday I started and finished reading 'Wintergirls' :) <3

Aaaaanyhoo, I'll update agian when I'm at a new LW. Which SHOULD be tomorrow :)

Take care.
- Kayla <3

It's within my reach

I'm so close to my GW2! :D As of this morning I am 1.3kg (2.86 lb) away from it. :)

At the moment, I am just trying to keep under 500 calories every day. It seems to be working for me :)
I am also starting to exercise again. I've been doing sit ups, leg lifts and arm exercises. I've been planning on going for walks, but I've had heaps of assignments and what not, but I HAVE to start ASAP!

I'm off for now, I'll post again when I reach my GW2 :)

It's worth it.
-Kayla <3

I won't ruin June too.

Sorry for the lack of posts lately!

In my absence, I've had my birthday, which, y'know, yay :)  But, that turned every single day into binge central. I would eat just for the sake of it. And it was all junk food too.

I've been trying for a few days now, to change my eating habits around. It's been hard though. But today, the first day of June; I've made a start on what I hope is my turning point :)

I started a liquid fast today. I'm hoping to lose the weight that I put on from the 'continuous binge'.

It pretty much was continuous. I pretty much always was eating something. It was disgusting.

But anyway; I'll be posting my daily weight and calorie intake on my page 'My Diets, Past and Present' and also my daily weigh in will be on the page 'Daily Weigh In'.

I'm hoping to continue this liquid fast for at LEAST three days. More if I can push through work without food.   I have school tomorrow though.. So that's going to be a challenge getting through, with the sudden lack of food. Gahh. I can see myself giving in tomorrow. :\


Stay strong.
-Kayla <3

Liquid Diet/Fast

If you've been checking on my 'My Diets, Past and Present' page, or follow me on twitter, then you would have noticed that I'm on a liquid fast at the moment. I've completed 3 days, and am on my 4th at the moment. I've lost 3.1kg (6.83 lb) since I started. That's almost exactly what I lose on 16 days of the ABC diet. Woah.

I think I am going to continue this liquid fast until I have reached my GW2. I'm estimating that that is around another three days or so away. But if my body can't cope with that, reaching a new LW would be just as good :) I'm 0.2kg (0.44 lb) away from a new LW.

I am quite amazed at how easy I have found this liquid fast to be. The only time I experienced bad stomach grumbles was yesterday, I think that was because I was at school and because I only had 5-ish hours sleep the night before. Also the first day I had band stomach grumbles, I think that was just because I wasn't used to eating so little. But apart from that, I haven't had much else :) No head spins really, and no hunger pains or anything :)

I've been liquid fasting with a friend on twitter :) She has been great support :) <3  (www.twitter.com/bonesofbeauty)

On another note, I'm sorry I haven't posted in a while! D: If you want to follow me everyday (if I haven't posted a blog) then you can check out my twitter to see what I am up to. (www.twitter.com/iwillbbeautiful)  Also the 'My Diets, Past and Present' page will have my stats for the day :) 

I hope you are all doing well,
Stay strong and keep believing :)
-Kayla <3

Getting back on track

Last night, I realised that I might be binging excessively because I'm bored with my diet. So, I decided yesterday was my last day  on the ABC diet, and I started looking for something new. I couldn't find anything. So, for now, I'm just going to try and keep it under 500 calories a day, until my binging is under control.  If you know of any good diets that I should try, let me know :)

I've burned a little over 200 calories so far, which is good :) I'm going to aim to burn at least 100 calories a day. I was going to try 500 at least. But I don't know if I have that much stamina.. hah.

Last night, right before I went to sleep I had a big binge. I was ridiculously full from it. And I feel all gross today. :\

I put on since yesterdays weigh in. But that's no surprise considering all that I ate.

I'm wanting to be back down to my LW by this time next week. I'm also aiming for no binges at all this week.

Stay strong. Stay motivated.
-Kayla <3

Ashamed

I know I don't have many readers, but for those who do read my blogs; I'm sorry that I haven't posted in so long. >.<

The reason being, I'm a failure. A fat failure.

So, I did my 51 hour fast. That was great :) And I was fine for a while. But then I fell back into the habit of binging. I'm at the stage of; if it's there, I'll eat it.
I've binged for the last 3 days, on cake mostly. Fat arse, I know. But I haven't put on as much weight as I thought I would thank goodness.

Oh, someone, who doesn't know I'm trying to lose weight, finally noticed that I've lost weight. It was a nice moment. :)  But now I feel more pressure.. 

I reached a new LW of 73.5kg (162.03 lb), but have put on since then.

This was only meant to be a short blog on how I'm a fat failure. But I guess not :P

I started self harming again. I didn't do it too often in the past. But I still did. It's for different reasons this time though. And I'm going to do it every time I binge. How else will I learn.


Sorry for the depressing blog.

Stay strong. And support each other. You have no idea what it means when someone doesn't judge you for your mistakes.
-Kayla <3