Long time no see..

Hey guys,

It's been three or so years.. I'm sure no one reads this anymore, but it's a nice little diary for me to keep for myself.

I have/had 'recovered' (and I use that term loosely in my case) in these past years. I am now a regular gym goer, it is something I really enjoy. I still struggle with BED still though. I can usually lose the weight from a binge, pretty easily though.. but lately has been really tough. I'm at a really high weight at the moment and the weight just won't budge.. So I've kind of slipped back into old habits..
I'm not restricting too severely as I am trying to maintain a much muscle mass as I can.. At the moment I'm restricting to around 700-1100, depending if I'm working out or not that day.
Iv'e lost a couple of kg in the past few days from doing so. Mostly water weight, just de-bloating you know.
I'm sick of yo-yoing, but I don't know how to stop. Every time I lose a significant amount of weight, even healthily, I ALWAYS binge, no matter what. I'm at my wits end.

I'm going to update my 'Rewards' page, to hopefully give myself a little more incentive to not binge in the future..

K xx

I tried it the healthy way.

I've been trying to lose weight the healthy way for 8 days now. Since the start of the year. I know that's not long. But I've been eating "properly" and exercising everyday. I am just not getting the results I want (like I do with Ana) So! Back to Ana. Once I've lost a fair bit, I'll try again with "normal eating", but in the meantime;

 LET'S GET SKINNY!

-Kayla <3

It's been too long

It's been a while. I know.

Last week, I did two days of the 30 Day Shred. Yes, I only did two days. But it didn't discourage me that I didn't keep it up. I am still motivated. It motivated me even more to finally get some physical activity.
I liked how I felt afterwards. Just that little bit less of hatred about my body. Just a little.

Anyway. So yesterday I did great. I didn't exercise but I did work for 4.5 hours, so it's some kind of movement at least.

I only ate 185 calories yesterday. So so sooo much less that I have for the past few months. I feel great.

I weighed in this morning weighing 1.6kg less than yesterday. Still at an embarrasingly high weight though. Higher than when I started this blog..

Today I am only going to be eating 90 calories. I did as much exercise as I could (I've pulled a muscle in the back of my thigh, so it was a struggle to do the little that I did.)

I'm really determined though. I can do this. No giving up this time.


It's been too long.
-Kayla <3

40 Hour Famine

I'm doing the 40 hour famine at the moment. It actually worked out better than I anticipated. There is an hour and a half left. I haven't been able to get my mind in the right place to water fast lately. But I successfully did it this time around. I think it was because I told my family, best friend and boyfriend that I was doing it and I didn't want to fail in front of everyone. It was good. I wish I could tell everyone when I always water fast. That could end badly though.. :P

I'm probably going to binge when this is over though.. :\ But I am determined to make up for it between Monday and Thursday. Going on my 4 day holiday Friday-Monday. I hate that I'll be fat for it, but oh well, there isn't much I can do about it now. I'll just make sure I am skinny for my next holiday. That is why I have decided to start the ABC diet next Tuesday, the day after I get back. Should be good :)

Also, I am going to exercise and do toning exercises this time around, so I don't end up skinny fat again.


I weighed in yesterday at 76.6kg. This morning I weighed in at 74.7kg, not bad for a days worth of water fasting huh :)



I hope everything is going well you all! :)
-Kayla <3

If tomorrow never comes..

I haven't really lost any weight.
Just maintaining around the same number.

I did that coffee diet I posted about in my last post for 5 days, but then took a break to eat normally with my boyfriend and have been off the rails since.

He is eating healthy now, but I'm finding it hard to get my head in the game.

I'm going on a holiday in two and a half weeks though, so I need to lose at LEAST 5kg. Do-able.
So, for the next two days I will only consume liquids. Then the next two days I will water fast. That's all I've planned so far. We'll see how that goes.

I want to be exercising everyday, it doesn't matter what it is, as long as it's something. I'll start off somewhat easier then build up to super intense and fat burning.

Oh, today I realised that the weight I am at now, I am officially overweight.. :\ 77.2kg jeez. I need to fix that. I can't believe I let it get this far.. ugh.


I CAN DO THIS!


Don't wait for tomorrow.
-Kayla <3


[[EDIT]]

I've decided that I'll eat only salad for the next few days, consisting of lettuce, carrot and cucumber. Less likely to binge this way.

New found love

Coffee; my savior. Last week I was having a little bit of coffee a day. It's grown on me and now I love it. Pretty sure I'm addicted. It puts me in such a great mood. I love it! For the past 3 days (today being the third day) I've only been drinking coffee during the day and then having my regular dinner. I plan on doing this all week and I'm hoping to lose 5kg this week by doing so. At the moment I'm at 0.4kg/5.0kg. So I still have to lose 4.6kg to lose before Saturday morning. I doubt I'll lose a whole 5kg. But that's my goal. Weight this morning 76.1kg. Fuck. Finally back in the right mind set to lose. I need this. <3

There's one thing missing

I am absolutely loving life at the moment.

People have literally said that I am glowing.

I went to a bonfire party last weekend and saw friends I haven't seen in nearly a year. I actually socialized and had a good time. It's like I'm a new me. I was speaking to someone on facebook that was at the party and they said that I was so outgoing and bubbly. Those words have NEVER been associated with me before. EVER. It's quite a nice change!

I've just been really confident, talkative and happy lately. I love it.

And it's actually quite surprising, because I am at a higher weight that the weight I naturally maintain. Which is bothering me quite a bit. But I've started cutting down, choosing healthier options and doing toning exercises and some walking. I need to focus on cardio a bit more. To burn this fat.
I don't fit into most of my clothes which is annoying :\
But it can only get better from here, right?


When I lose this weight; life will be perfect <3



You will find happiness.
-Kayla <3

Wanting isn't enough.

I just want this fat off of me, I don't want to be self conscious of my body anymore. I just want to be happy with my body. Things are going great in my life, except that I look like a tub of lard. So frustrated with myself. I"m going on a holiday at the end of the year. I need to be bikini ready by then. This calls for drastic measures. I need this. -Kayla <3

My mojo is back guys!

I finally have my mojo back! I'm getting back into the beat of things.

Today I had 688 calories. (A little more than I would like, but way less than it has been..)
And I burnt off 201 calories :)
With a net total of 487 :)

Last week I lost 1.5kg, that was just by exercising for a little tiny bit (it was pretty pathetic actually) on one day and just eating a lot less. Because I have been binging on thousands of calories for a few months, constantly, the major drop in calories (keeping it around 1000, probably a little more, or alot.. I didn't want to face the music and count all of them.. :\) But yes, a lot less calories caused me to lose 1.5kg (3.80 lb) in 7 days, so that's nice :)

My goal for this week is to exercise EVERYDAY for at LEAST 20 minutes. Which I am doing the 30DS, so that should keep me on track. Eat below 500 calories, preferably no more than 300. If not, have a net below 500.


In terms of how my life is going at the moment, I am just trying to get my house up so I can get my driving licence (I need 100 in total) I was slack throughout the year, but I really do need it so I can get myself to work ect.) I'm getting way better and more confident with that, so yay :)

Trying to lose as much weight as possible for this party thing in two weeks. Or exercise and restrict enough to not feel AS fat..

Even though I had a decent sized dinner, I'm going to bed hungry.. That just goes to show how my body isn't used to restricting anymore. Hopefully it'll work in my favor and help me lose more ;)


Well, I'm off to dream at the clothes I am going to get when I am skinny, then it's off to bed for more. Work in the morning! Have to get up at 4am again (I did today too) Oh well, I need/love the money. :)

P.S. It's my birthday this coming Wednesday! :D


Never give up hope.
-Kayla <3

2 1/2 weeks. Let's do this.

I set myself up for failure everyday. It needs to stop.

In 2 1/2 weeks, I am going to a "slumber party" and to a theme park for my friends birthday. I want to be back in the 60's by then. And a comfortable size 14 again. (I am approx 76kg now (wtf have I done to myself, I know) and I'm wearing a tight size 14 aus.)
My plan is to eat mostly fruit and vegetable and only drink water until then. Apart from my birthday, on the 23rd. But I'll be chucking in a few fasting days to make up for it. I also plan to do the 30DS and do 3km at the least on the treadmill each day. Burning everything off.
I am also going to try and start making myself life green tea, and attempt coffee. I need to keep my metabolism up.

I am hoping to lose at least 3ish kg in the first week. And at least maybe 7kg overall. Or just at least feel and look less fat than I do at the moment.

Oh, and I have obviously not continued the diet from last month. Hence the lack of posting. I've been in a binging rut. :\

It's time for change.

Forget your mistakes, start fresh in this very moment.
-Kayla <3

Ginovanni's 30 day 2 + feelings&emotions

Pretty tired, so just a quick update of how day 2 went.

I worked for the majority of the day again.

I didn't exercise.

Food wise, it wasn't great but it wasn't horrible. It was acceptable, I guess.


I feel like I'm sinking into a hole. I'm starting to need a change in scenery or something. But then I think, maybe I just need to get skinny. And that will be enough change in scenery. But a plus is that I will have confidence, or at least a little, which will result in people being friends with me and such.

I think that's it. The loneliness is getting to me. It just suddenly impacted me today. I think it's because I think one of my managers dislikes me. She's not my cup of tea either, but you know. It put a damper on my day. I know not everyone can get along with each other though.

I feel like I just need a good cry right now. I feel like I can't do anything right. Especially lose this fhucking weight!
Wow, maybe putting my scales away for the week wasn't the best idea? It needs to be done though.

Right now, I am just sick of life. I desperately need something to go well in my life.

I wish with all of my heart that I could find it in me to restrict like I used to. I don't know what has been switched off, that I can't seem to switch back on. I just constantly feel the need to eat. Not hunger though.

I'm never hungry anymore really. But I'm never full. Not even when I binge all day. It's like my stomach is a never ending pit.


I'll probably start only updating every week, the night of weigh in. I don't really have much to update about every other day.

Sorry for the horrendously long rant. I just needed to get some stuff off of my chest. I know I said it was just a quick update at the beginning ;P


I want to feel like a feather in the wind.
-Kayla <3

Giovanni's 30 Day 1

I decided to do 'Giovanni's 30' diet instead of SGD. I feel like because it is new to me, that I will be more likely to stick to it. Hopefully anyway.
It's a cross between ABC, SGD and the apple diet.

This is the plan;

I also planned on restarting the 30 Day Shred today, but today was ridiculously busy. I had work from 5am-1:45pm. Then I came home and got changed and had some fruit, then went back to work for a meeting for a couple of hours. When I got home it was too late to do it :( SO! I am going to do double tomorrow :) Promise.

So, fruit and vegetables don't count as calories on this diet. I was originally going to count them, but I'm going to see how this goes, not counting them, for a week, if I lose a good amount I'll continue, if not, I'll start counting them.

I have also put away my scales, I am going to start weighing myself every Monday, not everyday. Hopefully this will ward off the binges.

Starting weight for this diet is; 162.4 lb (73.6kg) 

I've started weighing myself in pounds instead of kg. Hopefully it makes it look like a bigger loss, which makes me keep soldiering on. :) It also keeps me somewhat oblivious to how much I weigh in kg, until I convert it. 

New plans are the path to new success.

-Kayla <3

Texting buddies? :) & bad news all round.

I messed up on ABC again.

Going to start Skinny Girl Diet on Monday, but I AM going to count the calories of fruit and veggies. Otherwise I am just going to overeat on them.

I also haven't done the 30 Day Shred in about 4 days. So I'll start that all over again on Monday as well. I actually really like it. I just got busy and lazy.

I was thinking of doing a replacement diet with the shakes and stuff, but I'm not sure if I want to spend all of that money every week. I'm just going to try and restrict until my birthday (23rd May), then have a little treat for my birthday, then straight back to restricting until I am at 50kg or less.

I feel like I need a texting buddy again (my previous one is having to deal with family finding out atm :\ STAY STRONG BOW!) So, if you would like to be my texting buddy, preferably from Australia (because of costs) then comment or email me at iwillbebeautiful@gmail.com
Having someone always there for you to text is kind of like a little bit of healthy competition :D I found that it kept me on track :)


One way or another.
-Kayla <3

ABC & 30 Day Shred Day 3

I fucked up day 3.


I did do my 30 Day Shred workout though.

It's day 4 at the moment, I'll make a new blog post about it either tonight or tomorrow morning.

Eating my calories in liquids today. Or I plan to anyway.

It's my dogs birthday today. I love him.

Weight of Day 3: 70.6 (155.64 lb)
Weight-loss since day 2: 0.4kg (0.88 lb)
ABC weight-loss: 1.2kg (2.64 lb)

Help me believe.
-Kayla <3

ABC Day 2 & 30 Day Shred Day 2

Sorry that this post is a little later than usual. I was wayyy too tired to write it last night. I had to get up for work at 4am.
I did the 30 Day Shred workout as soon as I got home from work at 9am. Going strong with the exercise.
The struggle was the food. I wanted to just eat.
I kept within my calorie limit though. With some difficulty. I guess I'm not as in the right head space as I thought I was.
I just need to get through the first few days or the first week, then I'll be fine. Hopefully.

Food diary:

Breakfast;
Wholemeal bread
Tomato sauce.
Half a slice of lite cheese.

Lunch;
Veggies with teriyaki sauce.

Snacks;
4 cordial ice cups.
Veggies with cheese sauce.
Small apple.

Dinner;
Uncle Toby's Oats.

Total: 498 calories.
Limit: 500 calories.
Net: 240 calories.


I'll post again tonight, about today.
Oh also, I was going to take a picture of my weight everyday, but I've forgotten for the past 2 days. I'll try and remember to do it everyday, it's hard when I have to get up at 4am though :P

Don't give up. Don't give up. Don't give up.
-Kayla <3

ABC Day 1 & 30 Day Shred Day 1

I'm back guys! :D

I wouldn't say I'm totally over the binge phase yet though. I must admit, as the day went on I had to talk myself out of eating a whole lot more. But one day at a time. Once I get through this week, then I'll be fine.


And yes guys, I have gained weight. A lot. I'm higher than I was at the start of the year. But that's just what I get for eating 2000-5000 calories everyday for a month and a half.


I also started the 30 Day Shred today! :D I nearly gave up at the beginning. But I pushed through it and it was over before I knew it!
Although, I STILL suck at push ups. A lot.

Breakfast:
Nothing.

Lunch:
Uncle Toby's Creamy Honey quick sachet of oats. Made with water.

Snacks:
Apple, medium.
Roasted cauliflower.

Dinner:
Sourdough roll with tomato, lettuce and cheese on it.
Spicy tomato soup.

Total: 496 calories.
Limit: 500 calories.
Net: 326 calories.


On a totally different note; my sister is trying to lose weight. She is obese. She is dieting with her fiance. This week, he lost more than her (I don't know about over all or anything) and she is pissed. She doesn't understand why she isn't losing more, because she is the bigger of the two.
I think it is because one, male metabolisms are naturally faster. And two, he does more moving around than her. He works 5 days a week, doing something with delivery or stock or something and she work 1-2 days a week, in like 3 hour shifts, either standing not doing much, or not putting much effort into picking up clothes. So, it's totally understandable why he is losing more. But she doesn't see that.
And what scares me is that she only eats 700-800 calories. I REALLY don't want her to have to go through an eating disorder.
Plus, I think because I am lighter than her, and lose weight pretty fast, she thinks because she is bigger than that should be easy peasy for her. Plus I tell my family when they ask that I eat about 1000-1200 calories. So she thinks that she is eating way less and not getting anywhere.
I don't know how to help her without admitting my deepest darkest secret.


Anyway! Enough of that little rant there! :P


I have a weight-loss plan set out for where I want to be at in a week ect. I want to have lost 5kg this week. I think it's doable, considering I lost a little under 5kg in the first week of ABC last time. The difference being I'm exercising this time. So hopefully I'll lose a little more this time around :)
Trying not to put pressure on myself though.


ABC starting weight: 71.8kg (158.29 lb)



Can't take it back, it's too late.
-Kayla <3

A pledge

After I posted that huge rant of a post the other day; I had a nap. It calmed me down. Which is nice. But that meant that I didn't have that fight and anger in me still, to follow out the plan.
So, I'm still not back on track.

I've decided I'm not aloud to write another blog after this until I have at least one good day.

I am so over this shit. I am over my failure.

I've gained a ridiculous amount of weight. I don't even want to post what I weighed in at this morning :\ .. I'll post my weight when I'm back on track. So then I'll be losing it so I won't be so ashamed. I just can't right now.


None of my clothes fit again. Or they fit grossly. I'm full on fat again.


Wish me luck, in this endless battle.
-Kayla <3 

I just want an apology

So. I have obviously been doing horribly. Obvious because the lack of posts.

But today came the motivation that I needed.

My dad went skits at me for no reason. I was just going to the kitchen for a snack (I think I may have B.E.D.) and he started having a go at me.

He told me to fuck off. He was getting really worked  up. I just stared him down for a few seconds and came into my bedroom. He has a history of hitting me. So I'm not taking my chances with him.

But anyway. I've come to the conclusion that everyone is more peaceful when I'm starving. So that is what I shall do. Starve.

I am going to continue starving, plus acting as if he doesn't exist; until he apologizes to me.

So, I'm not eating for the rest of the day. Then tomorrow I'll be starting the ABC diet. But I don't have to meet the calorie limit everyday. Just as long as I don't go over. :)
So, before work tomorrow, I'll have a 59 calories yogurt, then a 37 cal fruit bag after work. But not letting them see me eat.
So the aim of this game is to make them think I am eating nothing. Or little to nothing. They will not have the privileged of seeing the little amount of calories that I do consume. Like I will be. But I am going to make my parents, especially my dad, suffer with worry and guilt.



I just want to scream. I need to get away from here. I'm too fat for any of my clothes though.


Get ready for daily blogs of ABC again! :)


Make them worry.
-Kayla <3

My quick updates always turn into super long posts

You can always tell when I'm not doing well. I don't post as much.

I was going to start the ABC again yesterday, but I didn't because I went out with a friend to buy an outfit for a concert on Wednesday, and we got lunch. So I ate whatever I wanted the rest of the day pretty much.. I didn't eat before that though..

But then after that I was like, oh, I can't start it yet anyway, because it is my brothers and sister birthday next week, Monday and Wednesday, so there will be cake and take away for dinner ect.
So I am going to start the ABC diet on the 16th of March. I think I've said that in a different post. But oh well :)
Anyone want to join me? :D

I told my friend that I was still a vegetarian. She said "my mission for today is to make you eat meat!"
My response: "..no.. I don't want to eat meat.."
Her: "You're going to eat meat."
Me: "No I'm not."
Her: "Yes you arrrreee! Why not?"
Me: "I just don't want to. You can't force me. I just don't want to eat it."
Her: "Well, McDonald's doesn't even have real meat in it anyway, so you are going to eat a cheeseburger WITH the meat"
Me: "actually, McDonald's is 100% Beef and chicken"
Her: "yeah. Suuuureee it is."
Me: "It is. I'll seriously print out all of the proof and everything for you. I will go out of my way just to prove to you that it is"
Her: "Sure sure. You're going to eat it anyway"
Me: No I'm not. I'm going to go for at least a year. I'm not eating meat. I feel cleaner. I'll eat lunch with you. Just not the meat."
Her: "A YEAR!? Ha, no. You're definitely eating meat today!"
Me: "no thanks."

She wasn't saying it in a mean way. But it did feel like pressure. I wasn't going to give in of course. I don't have a weakness towards meat anymore.
Gosh, image her if I said I wasn't eating lunch at all. She always tries and pressures me into eating junk food when I am on a specific diet.
She's my longest and only friend. There isn't any hate towards her, she just has different ways of thinking about food is all.

I took my measurement yesterday, when I woke up.

Prepare for a shock.

All of my measurements were down, since the end of ABC. Except my weight and my waist.

My waist was a cm or two up, I think that is because my belly still had food in it. And my weight is up, well, because of this horrible food rampage I am on.

I won't post the actual numbers now, I'll retake them and post them when I start the ABC diet.


I put on the outfit I got for the concert I am going to on Wednesday, to show my mum and dad, today. I like it. They like it. Yay. But I asked if it made me look a little big, because it's a puffy kind of top. My dad literally laughed and said no. Like full on cracked up. He probably thinks I'm crazy.

My dad openly says that I starve myself.
My sister was somewhat teasing me about how much I have been eating lately. It is waaay more than the average person. It is at the point that it is on the higher range of the binge scale. Everyday. I asked her how does she know this (she lives with her fiance). She said mum and dad were talking about it.
I confronted both of them. Separately. Mum tried to deny it as usual. Just got cranky and yelled "Fine! I won't f*cking talk to anyone about anything from now on!"
This is one of her frequently used phrases. Seriously, sometimes I think that she still has a teenage mind set and attitude.
My dad tried to deny it too. He acted like he didn't know what I was talking about. Then he just simply said "I just think it's a bit weird and random that you suddenly went from starving yourself, to wanting all of this food"


Also, my mum, sister, nanny and I were chatting, I think it was about weight or something, they're all obese, and my nanny was like, "gosh, you're not fat Kayla, I wish I was as skinny as you. You'll have to tell me your diet" Mum: Laughs. "No you don't." She then thinks how to word it without making me upset, or something like that. "She counts like, every last calories. It's alot of calorie counting.. and.. just. No you don't want her diet."
Me: "Whaaatt, it's not that bad!" Laughs.



I also took progress pictures yesterday. There isn't too much of a change. Just my tummy is more firm, as in sticking out firm, now, because of all of the food. It makes it look different.

Sunday, the day I went shopping with my friend, was the first time I have comfortably gone clothes shopping with someone that isn't either my mum or my sister. I wasn't ashamed of my size. She was even quite helpful. AND she even called me skinny. Me. The fat friend our entire lives. Skinny. Ha, boy did that make me feel good.
We both were criticizing our own bodies though, she was complaining about her busty chest (but she has a small frame. It is kind of disproportioned, but it's just her genetics) and I was complaining about my belly. And legs.
I definitely need to work on them.


I am pretty much going to eat whatever for the next week and a half. I am going to be so fat when I start he ABC diet.

At least I'll lose it though.

I am aiming to be at 50kg by the end of it. 55kg if my weight is super high by the time I start it.

I'm going to exercise while I am on it too, this time.

I am going to go hard out. I am super determined. My stomach is so fat right now. Ugh. More than usual.


I weighed in at 64.4kg this morning. Well, yesterday morning now. It's nearly 2:30am.

Weighing in now. I am over 66kg. It always goes down by the time I weigh in though. But still. I can't believe I've let myself go this much. But I just can't get in the right mind set. I don't know what it is. Ugh.
I am without a doubt going to be in the right mind set by the time I start the ABC diet again.
Once I get the ball rolling with ABC, I'll be fine.

Also, you know how I barely "went to the toilet" when I was on the ABC diet. Well, now a days, I am going like every day. If not more. It's fricken weird. It's not like I've been eating the most nutritious foods. At all.

I'll update again in a few days, I'll hopefully post some pictures of my from before the concert, in my outfit and what not :)


Don't give up on yourself.
-Kayla <3

Failure one again. BUT BEST MOOD EVER!

I've had McDonald's for the past few days. Pathetic I know. Plus, then I'm like oh what the hell, I may as well eat everything in sight. -.-

Some days are worse than others.

Today I stayed back 2 hours after work, and started a little early, and it was busy non stop. So I burnt heaps of calories. :) Approximately 854 calories. :)

But, I still ate way more than I am proud of. Over 3000. Yeah. Shit.

Tomorrow, I am working 5 more hours than I was rostered for, in the dinner rush, so I should burn quite a lot of calories. I'm working 8 hours altogether :)  But, I'll probably be eating McDonald's for my dinner on my break, and knowing me I'll probably eat it after work as well. (I work at McDonald's) Don't worry, I always get it without the meat. Still going strong with the vegetarianism. :) I'm normally not as tempted by the food there. Normally not at all really. But lately I've just been like what the hell.

I think the reason why I have been craving and eating everything in sight is because I am due for my period tomorrow. (Today now. I just looked at the clock. 1:30am already!)


A hot guy (tan, blue eyes!) asked me for my number tonight. I asked his age (22) and had to say no, I'm only 16. I told him my age and he was like "Bullshit!" He was full of complements though :) Wish the age gap wasn't so big. He was hot as. Haha ;P (no one (attractive) EVER asks me for my number or anything. It made me feel quite good about myself :))
A nice old gentleman also called me beautiful :)
And a like 12 year old tried to hit on me. It was awkward. In front of all of his mates too. It was quite amusing :P
It's a nice confidence booster though. :)

Tonight, I noticed that my confidence at work has grown SOOOO much! I wonder if it is like that outside of work. I don't know to be honest. I never go out.. ha.

I am in such a great mood right now. Just by reminiscing on my night!

So yeah, overall, my day was bad food wise, good emotionally, confidence wise, mood wise and socially. I'm not even bothered by how much I ate though. I feel great from all of the exercise I did tonight :) I also think the music I am listening to has something to do with it to :P

Tomorrow, I'm waking up and exercising. I'm not going to allow myself to eat ANYTHING until I do. Even if it is ridiculously hot again.
I want to burn at LEAST 500 including work. It all depends on what station I am on at work as to how many calories I burn. And how busy it is.


Feeling really good about tomorrow! :D Omg I love this mood I am in! Ahhhh! :D


This post turned form glum to amazingly bright and happy! haha :D

I love you all! :D

Make tomorrow better than today. Everyday.
-Kayla <3