Fasting update

I have no been water fasting for about 59 hours. I don't think I am even hungry. I am thirsty though. I just woke up so I haven't had any water yet.

It's all in the mind.

Yesterday I wanted to eat SO bad. My mind did, but I talked myself out of it. Because my body didn't really NEED it.

I even got to the point in telling myself that if I jogged on my treadmill then I could eat the calories I burnt. I did it too. But I had talked we essence into myself by the time I had also done crunches and showered ect.

But doing that, I also made a pact with my mind, that if I was under 60kg tomorrow morning (today now) I would allow myself to eat. (I knew it would probably turn into a binge day, but I'm ok with that. Liquid fasting for 4 days after)

Guess what. I'm under 60kg. I didn't think I would be to be honest. I was 61.3kg yesterday so I was like pshh there's no way in the world I'll lose a big number again. But I did. I am now down to 59.3kg. That's my lowest weight yet. It doesn't feel like it though. I don't feel like my body feels the same as when I reached my LW on ABC.
Maybe it's because I know as soon as I eat I'll gain.

So. I am conflicted.
Do I eat and break my fast at 60 hours. Resulting in a binge day, but making up for it with a 4 day liquid fast.
Or do I continue water fasting one more day and only eat a yogurt and an apple a day for 4 days.

My mind just really wants food. Judnckndinc

I guess if I ate today then I could get it out of my system.. But then there's the chance that I'll still want more of it in the days after..

Sorry. I'm just thinking out loud here.


I think I'll eat today. ONLY if I do my toning exercises right now and also be really good this week. The second one is harder to keep, it's in the future after all. But as long as I have it in my head that I'm not aloud to mess up, then I'll do it.

Going to start jogging in the mornings, starting tomorrow. I feel like it will be much easier then jogging on a treadmill.

Yesterday, when I was in my new workout clothes (a fitted sports top thing) he said I have a very flat stomach. I then proceeded to point out that is in fact not flat, as it sticks out at the bottom.
He said that that is just loose skin from loosing so much weight and that it will snap back in no time. I disagreed. It is fat. You can all see that from my before and after ABC pictures.
He told me to look in the mirror. I said I do look n the mirror? He then took me in front of a mirror and showed me my 'flat stomach'. I continued to point out the unflatness of it. My mother was in the room and I asked "do you see it? You see it hey?" she said she does see what I mean. That kind of hurt me but motivated me at the same time.
I think my dad felt a little annoyed at my mum because I think he suspects I have an ED. and you don't say that to someone who has an ED. He is always trying to convince me that I'm thin.


Sorry for the beyond long post.

I'm putting off eating, I think :P
I'm not going to eat until the 60 hour mark.

I need to start remembering to take my multivitimans in the morning.


Starting weight of water fast: 63.0kg (138.89 lb)
Water fast weightloss: 3.7kg (8.15 lb)
Current weight: 59.3kg (130.73 lb)
Duration: 60 hours.


It's all I'm your mind. Be strong.
-Kayla <3